May 22, 2007
Deep calls unto deep at the noise of Your waterfalls; All Your waves and billows have gone over me. The LORD will command His loving kindness in the daytime, and in the night His song shall be with me — A prayer to the God of my life. Psalm 42:7-8
Have you ever experienced God’s call? Sometimes it comes in the midst of adversity. There are times I have felt the Lord tugging on my heartstrings, wanting more from me. As I was completing my master’s degree, I realized that I was not giving enough of myself to Him. I felt so tired, so often totally depleted. I was away from home part of each week. My jaw continued to hurt. I felt as though I needed more from God, but I knew He was asking me to give more of myself.
God was calling me to give more to my church. In prayer I had talked to the Father about my lack of participation. I realized that it wasn’t really participation that God was interested in. He was calling me to give more time in service to my church and more time with Him.
I am so happy to be home now and able to give more. I remember the nights away from home and thank God that He was with me. I missed my husband, my family, and my home. Just as God had preserved me in the day, He kept me during the night. His faithfulness paved a way for me to invest more of myself in His kingdom.
It was just recently that I asked God how much more of me He wanted. He lovingly reminded me that He wants all of each one of us. Jesus gave His all, and God does not want us to hold back anything from Him.
Reminded that Jesus gave His all for me, I stand outdoors on a windy day healed of trigeminal neuralgia. The wind whips at my face, never once smarting from pain as it did so many years. I have enjoyed the winds and the breezes since October 24, 2004. Thank You, Lord.
Have you read With Great Mercy?