December 8, 2008
“What do you mean, ‘If I can’?” Jesus asked. “Anything is possible if a person believes.” Mark 9:23 (NLT)
I remember praying to die. I cannot remember how many times I said this prayer, but I remember the physical pain that motivated me to do so.
I also remember when I started praying to live. I wanted a life, one that included the freedom to brush my teeth, to speak, to chew, and to feel a breeze on my face.
When someone is diagnosed with three cranial neuralgias, his or her world can be a bleak place. I relinquished all my responsibilities. The only thing I had to be concerned about was bearing the pain. I watched my mother turn her attention from her own needs in order to devote her life to caring for me. I heard her and others cry. I heard some people ask God why.
Just as it was difficult to believe that I had become so ill, it was difficult to believe that I could get well. Belief was the key. I began to believe that I could get well, and the hope of getting well grew inside me. Hope and faith in Jesus’ ability to heal me became more powerful than the pain.
I believe that face pain and other illnesses can be overcome. I am no one special, just someone who believed that I could receive a miracle. You may be reading this because you or someone you know is very ill. Do not give up. Hope exists. Healing happens. Don’t be afraid to believe.
Have you read With Great Mercy?